So for some reason ever since I turned 30 I have just felt so trapped in my day to day life...
I am sick of the monotony of my job, and to be quite honest I have not been happy at my job for quite some time now, but the job market has forced me to stay there as it provides me with a steady income. I feel like I am at a point in my life where I should be in a career, not the dead end job I am in right now. All I can think about most days is just how much I want out! And I feel so powerless in the whole situation. I have been job hunting for over a year now and so far I have had one interview out of the many jobs I have applied for and for whatever reason I did not get that job that I interviewed for. I tried going to school, but the recent layoffs due to the economic downturn forced me to quit after only one term...my husband was laid off and we could no longer afford my tuition. I feel like I have nothing to show for my life...I mean don't get me wrong I have a wonderful husband, my babies (my cats), and my family...but I am in a dead end job, living paycheck to paycheck and paying pretty much a mortgage payment on my 2 bedroom apartment. I don't know, I guess I just thought that by this point in my life I would be in a house and have a career. Or at the very least be in a house. So I have been mildly depressed lately just thinking about how I am stuck and how bad I want to change things but I just can't. It's very frustrating. I am sure that I am not the only one feeling this way, it's kinda hard not to with the way the economy is, pretty much life in general sucks for a lot of people right now. Anyway....just felt like getting that out of my system...till next time!
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